before you have kids, you dream about them. you dream up what they'll look like, the things they'll like, and in my case, what their personalities will be like. it's fun dreaming about these future littles. i remember dreaming them up since i was eight. for real.
no way on earth could i have dreamed up the personality my first born would come to this earth with in her little body. she is stubborn, determined, busy, hot/cold, passionate, excitable, and very unpredictable. i honestly knew she possessed almost all of these personality traits twenty-four hours after her birth. there was no lack. she screamed at the top of her lungs. she refused to breast feed (that took weeks!). she wouldn't sleep if her feet were touching anything. i mean, she honestly was born with her personality and it hasn't changed much since july 26, 2011.
the one thing that HAS changed is her willingness to cuddle. oh my goodness the cuddles. it only started a few months ago. she was not born a cuddler. in the most random of times now, she will throw her arms around my neck, squeeze, and make the cutest sigh noises. i love it. i love it. i love it. i could stay in those squeezes for eternity. so when i get them, i stop what i'm doing and totally and completely soak it all in.
i imagine that her determined little soul is definitely a positive. i hope she will be determined to do what is right, to stand up for what she believes in, and to always remember who she is and where she came from. that determined little soul will test my patience for the next several years, i know it, but i hope i will always respect it. she knows what she wants and she's going to get it.
(not thrilled with the situation at all)
(worn RIGHT out- a scene that has maybe happened twice in her life)
(my sweet little baby)