man i miss this blog. all year i was basically playing catch up and feeling like i couldn't post the day to day things that i used to love to blog about! brooklyn is at the age now where she loves to sit and look through the blog on her own. dream come true for me! but how sad will it be when kendall and adalyn want to do the same and there's hardly anything about their lives on here? it breaks my heart. so this year i am determined to keep up to date! it's so much harder to do now that i have three little ones to take care of, but luckily, james wants this updated just as much, so he's been more than willing to offer up anything he can do to help make it possible. i get giddy just thinking about doing this regularly again.
i also blame this rapidly growing babe that i JUST. CAN'T. PUT DOWN. for the lack of blogging...
on our anniversary (DEC 28TH), we've made it a tradition and priority to go to dinner and discuss our goals/theme/vision for the new year. i really love having our anniversary right before the new year because this has given us this kind of opportunity at just the right time in the year. this year was no different. we got a babysitter, kissed the girls goodbye, and headed to the mandarin here in bountiful. our favorite!
it was james who got the conversation going this year. last year, i was anxiously/nervously waiting to hear what middle name he'd picked out for our unborn babe. man that was a great moment! he couldn't have picked better, in my opinion. (in case you don't know, adalyn's middle name is jac, after my grandma jackie) he talked about things he wanted to improve on and what goals he had for our family. i did the same, and then we chose a theme... though we couldn't quite put it into words to make it a less wordy theme. then we happened to be in target a couple days later and saw a cute banner, and the words on it were perfect! so we snatched it up and it's hanging in our home as a great reminder of these goals.
i pondered long and hard about what i want my own personal goals and vision for the year to be. going back and forth thinking that i was either being too easy or too hard on myself. being a woman is hard right?! then add in there being a mother and wife and it's straight up impossible sometimes. it blows my mind how amazing those two roles are in my life, but how they bring me to my knees more than anything else. i wouldn't trade my roles as wife and mother for all the riches in the world (or donuts!), but it's HAAAARD. so i settled on some simple goals and a quote i've been trying to keep in my head constantly...
"A Mother knows that the influence of righteous, conscientious, persistent,
daily mothering is far more lasting, far more powerful, far more influential
than any earthly position or institution invented by man."
the task seems daunting, but with the help of amazing people i am lucky to be surrounded by daily, i can do it! it won't be perfect and it sure as heck most of the time won't be pretty, but i'm determined to be a better version of myself this year. so here's to a new year, a renewed hope, and a whole year ahead of things to look forward to!